i need to concentrate. stop digressing. sit down. AND MUG. but i cant. no matter how hard i try. even if i manage to curb my want of watching shows i cant get my brain down to work.

i am worried that i am not exactly worried for promos. does that even make sense?

- Y staring out into the night

it's 1:19am in the morning. once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENISE! finally 17 years old! WHEEEE. welcome to the club! hahaha.

here we both are slogging our guts out at OP. zzzzzzzz. dang and blast everything. poor girl, it's your birthday and you still have to stay up for this. =X its raining now and the lightning flashes im seeing are DAMN BRIGHT. it literally lit up my back garden. let's take it as it's supporting our PW or something =.=

okay la. back to OP!

- Y staring out into the night

i don't know why, but all of a sudden, i feel like turning back time. yeah the missing tianjin part seems almost an inaugural part of me coz it's just so carefree then. the only bad part was that i was far away from my family and friends. but now apart from missing tianjin, im missing the old tjco. not that tjco now is bad or whatever, everyone there's great, but i feel like something is missing. i don't know how to explain it, but i really feel like sitting down with the ex-comm and all the j2s and have a good long talk. honestly. it just hit me somehow during lunch that everything has changed.




It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then the word grew louder and louder
‘Till it was a battle cry

I’ll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything’s changing
Doesn’t mean it’s never been this way before
All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are as you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You’ll come back
When it’s over
No need to say goodbye

Now, we’re back to the beginning
It’s just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can’t feel it too
Doesn’t mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
‘Till they’re before your eyes

You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

- Y staring out into the night

so much work, so little time. i realize i always face such a problem. time management? gah. i can't change the unchangeable.

rehearsal today was ______. totally far away from what ive expected. the music went haywire. maybe its because of all the complications backstage, maybe its just because its esplanade not SCH, maybe its just because of monday blues. i really don't know but well, everything has its first time. hopefully such horror will be the last. on second thoughts, it better be.

things are starting to pile up altogether again. urgh. don't look forward

- Y staring out into the night

omg omg i am in love with liu li yang's ji mo guang nian. i still remember how i used to tell myself night after night to go and find the theme song of shuang zi xing but forget time and time again. finally caught the ending and immediately baidu-ed the song. simply wonderful. nice tune and nice lyrics. seriously you all should go and listen. it's really worth the time =)

是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼 眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己判刑
忘了我也值得被关心

一双手一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹

是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴
天灰了，快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里
忘了我也配被人在意

一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空
精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想有拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹

那是谁的温柔留在我的小手
微不足道却那么重

漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没
整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走
带我离开空洞的星球

还有什么值得追求
还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由

http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/350400ht.htm###

- Y staring out into the night

my brain tells me that i need to mug. but my body doesn't want to. i wanna watch a thousand shows. wanna play a thousand games. wanna go a thousand places. cant believe ive gone through 2 jcts and have 2 more to go.

AH.

- Y staring out into the night

funny yet emo picture. animals also have feelings.

1st week of holidays started. yet it doesnt seem to be. school EVERYDAY just sucks. PW sucks even more. pray hard that our group can get that legendary glorious precious APPROVED stamp on our paper tmr. if not, DIE.

- Y staring out into the night